Aromantic

It’s actually comforting to know that this is a trait other people express. I have never been romantically attracted to anyone before. Talking about crushes when I was younger was always strange and alienating because I couldn’t relate. I would simply lie. I’ve always ended potential and new relationships with me explaining that I’m simply not attracted to the person. I just always pegged it on us being incompatible even as I was considering the fact that maybe I’ll just never fall in love because there’s something wrong with me. Like something inside me didn’t finish it’s job during puberty and I would forever have the romantic mentality of a child.

Even then I wasn’t bothered by it though. I didn’t care. I don’t care. I’ve never felt alone and unfulfilled because I don’t have a significant other. My friends are the absolute greatest in the world. I don’t like imagining my life without them. My previous relationships have been more along the lines of monogamous friends with benefits and they were a lot of fun. I like things casual and noncommittal. And while I’ve never felt alone due to my lack of a love life, I have felt alienated and strange because this isn’t the norm and I knew that. It’s reassuring to learn other people identify this way, and prompts me to be a bit more forthcoming with my feelings surrounding this in the future.